Hello, My Friends!!
Oh, how I have missed you!
You know, I have to say that it was so intense the last few weeks for me. I have really been working on trying to avoid the person that I was before the quarantine.
I know that may sound crazy, but I have to explain.
Before the quarantine I spent all of my time running around like a crazy person. I am married, I am the mother of four, I work full time for the state, I work on Saturdays at a salon, I am going to school online, I am super involved volunteering at my church, and I love hanging out with all my friends.
All of this led to me being a caffeine-addicted, exhausted, angry, stressed out fool.
I was so stressed out and didn’t even know it.
Then the quarantine happened.
Honestly, this led to my freedom. I didn’t have to make excuses to not do things because I was so tired. I stopped screaming at my kids all the time. I had time to actually read my bible and pray. I had Saturdays free to spend with my family. I had time to take care of myself. I had time to talk to my husband. It has been sooooooooooooo freeing guys.
But, now things are reopened and the reopening led to a massive amount of anxiety for me. I really had to search my heart and seek God because what was happening was, I started acting out.
Literally, like a child, I was angry and grumpy and complaining. It was so gross lol!
For real though, I really had to check myself. I realized that my problem was that everything was opening back up again and my responsibilities were coming back that were so incredibly overwhelming.
I needed to find my peace again.
The problem was that during quarantine I didn’t have to run around like crazy and I found peace with that. I honestly did not even realize how much stress I was putting my body and my mind under. It took God revealing to me that my problem was that I had put way too much on my plate and I needed to make some changes.
Now life is not completely back to normal, but things are coming back slowly into my life and I really need to make sure that I prioritize the things that are truly important to me!
I need to work on myself. Slowly, God is showing me the way to freedom. Slowly I am embracing who I truly am. Slowly I am realizing that I am so blessed by God. I have an amazing husband, I have happy and healthy kids, we have a warm and safe home, we have everything that we need.
Once I was able to clearly look at who I had become and see that this is not who I wanted to be. I was able to start making little changes to free my mind from all the craziness.
I think as moms, women, people, we just pile things on. We take on way too much and we don’t even realize what we are doing to ourselves. It took a national pandemic for me to open my eyes! How insane is that?!
So now, I really want to protect that peace. I really want to protect that family time and that time with God. I really want to protect my chill, my peace, my sanity.
So, this week I am planning on taking purposeful time to prioritize my life. Instead of trying to work the entire day on Saturday, I am only working a few hours in the morning, so I still have some time to spend with the family. Instead of stressing out trying to get schoolwork done, I am taking a hiatus for now. Instead of trying to be everything for everyone, I am making time for God, myself, and my family. Instead of stressing out about everything and letting it boil over, I am working on catching my feelings before I flip my ship.
I challenge you to take a look at your thoughts and your behavior and ask yourself, is this who you really want to be?
If not, that is totally okay! You have more power than you realize to take the steps to make a change and be better. If you don’t know where to start, just pick something small. One thing I started to do was put away my paper towels.
Let me explain.
Over the past few weeks, I have really tried to make the switch to a lifestyle in which my family has less waste. With that being said, we stopped using paper towels and switched to cotton “paper” towels.
This was amazing when they were all clean and on my counter. BUT – they get dirty and need to be washed. So, I wash them and then they go into the clean laundry pile.
For those of you who know me – we have a family of six and since I am a hot mess, we have a gigantic pile of clean laundry hanging out with us at. all. times. This pile is the bane of my existence. It drives me up a wall. I can’t stand it. I loathe this pile guys. But I also can’t stand folding and putting away laundry either, clearly.
So, what has happened is, now, instead of having convenient paper towels on my counter to use at my leisure, I have clean cotton towels mixed in the pile.
This was causing me so much stress. You know when you go to cook or clean something and there are like 85000 things that you have to do before you even get started?! Well. Finding a paper towel has now been added to that list.
So – this is super stupid I know – I started making an effort to actually find the towels and put them away.
This is something small, but it is where I start to make a change to have a more peaceful life.
The truth is that Jesus came and died for me so that I can be set free. Set free from making myself miserable trying to do it all. Set me free from everything in my life that is not making it peaceful and fruitful.
The truth is that if He can do that for me, he can do that for you too! Tell me all your victories, what are you working on? Where will you start?
I know this was short and sweet but – it’s what’s on my heart today! I hope you all have an amazing Fourth of July… this is my FAVORITE holiday. So, please enjoy it! Find your peace and your chill and enjoy your life!
Stay safe and blessed my friends! ❤